Psalm 98:1
O sing to the Lord a new song,
For he has done wonderful things.
His right hand and His holy arm have gained the victory for Him.



I often find myself singing hymns while I do, well, while I do most anything. Look around and see all that the Lord has given us. He has done wonderful things for me. I think I should always have a song in my heart for Him. When I came on here, I started my post complaining. I obviously deleted it. And then I thought, shame on me. How dare I wake up on this glorious day the Lord has made with a stinky attitude like that! Shame on me. I am so blessed and yet so unthankful. I mean, I say how thankful I am and yes, I am thankful, but deep deep down, when I look at the parts of me that only God can see, am I really all that thankful? Would I really be willing to give all I have up for Christ? Sure, I say I would, but if it really came down to it, would I? I think of all the areas I fail Him. What a wretch I am. I know, Becca, look at all the good you do...I don't want my eyes to focused on me...I want my eyes to be focused on the nails and on the foot of the cross. I want to wash His feet with my tears...*sigh*...wretch that I am...I so want to be holy as He is holy. SOmetimes I think I want to talk all smart like other people when I read what they write. And I want to pray so smart like other people and talk all spiritual like they do...I think sometimes that God wants to hear all that hoity toity big talk... and then I remember He came to sinners. He came to those that needed Him. Without Him, I am nothing. Nothing but a dumb highschool dropout who now can't teach history for the life of her...

Lord, help me to be better. To be a better teacher, a better mom, a better wife. I know it's a simple request, but it seems so huge to me...